hi. back.

My job is over.
I had a great last day: Luana brought in a homemade banana cake, Daneen and Susie pulled a prank on me to have this guy call in every hour to ask for "Randy," I was treated to free lunch from a new friend, and I was allowed to leave an hour early.
It hasn't hit me yet that I'm really done.

I wasn't accepted to TA this summer abroad. So now I'm left open with many options! I haven't brainstormed yet, but this one was always floating through my mind: I can go to NYU for that class (but it would cost me). Ideas? Ideas?

Today is my Pitt orientation, but I am laying in bed instead.
I've been going through some anxiety depression I think, and today I thought it best for my emotional well being to just rest and relax. I feel like I've been out and about all week and it has done its wear. Besides, I know the insides and outs of Pitt's options. I just wanted to go for the free food.

Last night I went out with Jes to Pittsburgh to hit up Lawrenceville. I met up with my friend Skim (Sky + Tim) and his girlfriend at this place that looks like you've traveled to India. Anyhow, in between the Spanish folk and Brazilian beats, we were able to catch up on each other's lives. Skim has been a dear friend of mine since Freshman year, and I can't believe how in tuned we are with each other's ambitions still, even when we hadn't hung out really since last Spring. He can simply look at my photography and tell me how I feel. I'm truly happy to have him as my friend because it is a rare, rare thing to not have to talk and talk to someone for him/her to understand you.

I've been getting so much love from my friends and family that I'm somewhat overwhelmed by how lucky I am. I know a lot of my strife in my head is about my future and I used to be so good at just letting it roll to whatever happens, so I will try not to fixate on things I can't decide just yet. I guess the whole span of options scares me and I'm sure it happens to every post-grad. I must remember how lucky I am to even have options and a degree and support :) I really shouldn't complain when I know that what I'm getting involved with is important and interesting.

The idea of living in Pittsburgh again kinda attracts me, but also turns me off. I guess I'm terrified for next winter. I have a hard time managing without sunshine. I suppose I can just go South again over break or something. Going to Mexico during the winter break of 2007 really made my winter shorter, if I remember correctly.

So my dad returns on Wednesday and I'm sure it's going to be hustle and bustle (what does that even mean?) around the house again. I thought about it yesterday and I would really love to just fish. I mean I don't even eat fish and I don't think I've ever caught a fish, but I want to fish.

Sunday, Skim, Daveen, and I are going to the Cherry Blossom Festival in D.C.
Be on the lookout for new photos!